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The Weight of Water

Arya Tondale

Written by Arya Tondale

Edited by Maggie Huang



PTSD can really affect how someone reacts physically and emotionally in all kinds of situations, making everyday life harder. After a drowning accident, for example, a person might develop a serious fear of water, which can make even simple things like bathing feel stressful. They might also struggle with feelings of shame, mood swings, depression, anxiety, or even constant, unwanted thoughts about what happened. These effects can be tough to deal with and may make it hard to relax or connect with others. (Garshasbi, 2022) 

This poem is about how PTSD makes the person feel whenever they are near any kind of water body. 


It swirls and swirls this clear liquid

My guilt becoming ever so wicked

I drown beneath its crushing weight

Its kinda funny, “I think I should wait”

Wait to touch what took me away

In this abysmal abyss of bluish hues

Avoidance is what I always choose

How can it be the giver of breath

When it lures softly the promise of death

A mirror reflecting my deepest fear

Where’s the end? it's still unclear

An unfair price which I now payAlas I wait to touch what took me away

My toe hovers, trembling, near the edgeAbove this abyss where memories wedgeReflecting ripples, an unspoken scream,A giant whirlpool of a long-lost dream

Avoidance became my loyal shieldA shallow strength I dare not yield

Ripples speak of moments goneOf battles lost, and the will withdrawn.

Frigid memories remain still

Silently waiting for me to heal






References: 

Garshasbi, S. (2022, December). Post-traumatic stress disorder after drowning. Journal of Injury and Violence Research. https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC9875099/#:~:text=PTSD%20often%20changes%20a%20person’s,stress%20after%20a%20drowning%20accident


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